Today is the day

Those words always remind of a great song that we used in Vacation Bible School with the kids, Today Is The Day. I can still picture the kids doing the hand motions and laughing together while they sing it. Everytime the Lincoln Brewster version comes on the radio, immediatly I can hear childrens laughter. So why do I feel so down on a day like today, one that God has made and given to us? Today, for my family, is the offical day that my husband is returning to sea duty. I have been letting it all build up emotionally for me over the past few months, knowing that the reality of today was going to come. That does not mean I have to be ok with it, but instead be accepting of it and as a good wife, supportive for him. We have been blessed to have three years of shore duty, which seems to be a scarce thing in the military. We have gotten accustomed to Daddy being home at night, and home everyday of the week, on weekends, all the holidays. Even if it meant that every once in a while he had to work a duty weekend (the air show) or that he had to stay late, he still came home EVERY NIGHT. Now our lives are about to go thru a huge change. I have been praying alot more lately and re reading the book Power of a Praying Wife by Stomie Omartian (sp). The book was originally lent to me by a dear friend, that knew I was ready for my husband to walk with me on my journey, but knew that as a couple we were stuggling in this area. The words touched me and taught me that everything is on God's time. That God will walk thru this scary journey with my family, and when I am feeling as I am today, that I have a doubt in life, that HE will lift me and carry me if He sees it necessary.

When I got up this morning, I was getting ready to walk out the door for work, and in my normal routine, I almost forgot to kiss my hubby by (on leave til today), but I stopped my car, pulled back into the driveway and went in to kiss him. I am glad I did, I found him upstairs getting ready for the day, knowing Candace is ready to get moving! He sat looking sad and embraced me and did not let go, I know that he is sad that this day has come also. Emotionally I know that I CAN do this and that ultimately I have Him to help me, but I still tremble at my thoughts of not having him here.

I also have a great group of friends, who know my fears, relate to them on most levels and will help me get through it. I have expressed my fears to Jessica, and she has reminded me how strong I am and how many other mommies/wives I have helped through these hardships of seperation. She helped to remind me how proud I am to be a NAVY WIFE! Our husbands are out there defending our freedom! While they are doing so, it is our job to protect our families and let them know that we are ok, we miss them, but we are ok! So I plan to continue my prayers, my faith and my trust in God, but I am still in some what of a mourning period as most of us do go through..........